When God calls us to the battle, it's for good. The race must be ran and it must be completed. I started my blogs here earlier in the year and they were a blessing to me and other people. My last post was in late July. It was during this time that I went to Texas and got engaged on the 10th of July, only to have the engagement broken on August 1st. It was a devastating time for me, but the Lord brought me through it. Since that time I've learned to depend and lean on Jesus for all things. I didn't write much during this time and didn't post in my daily devotionals. I didn't really feel much like writing and didn't feel really inspired. I needed to get a new and fresh perspective on my life. I decided to return back to Texas, but this time I was doing it for myself. I wanted to pray and seek God for the direction of my life. I was physically and emotionally beat down and just needed rest. I needed to be away from my usual surroundings and just learn how to relax and be good to myself. For two years I had the responsibility of caring for my mother who suffered from Alzheimers and that left me burnt out. I originally planned staying 4 to 6 weeks, but it has been over three months and I'm still here. I have decided to move here for a little while until other areas in my life are worked out. I have enjoyed the time alone with my sister here in San Antonio and I've also reconnected with my writing because I actually have time to write now and breathe a little bit. I'm finding myself again and also renewing my vows to God. He has given me a fresh anointing and I'm having a great time just taking it easy and resting in the Lord. I have more time for prayer and bible study now. It's not unusual for me to spend the entire day just praying and meditating on the Word of God. This has helped me to want to write again. So I decided that this was a great place to start. I still have a race to run. I may have been down but Jesus truly has picked me up. He has taken every broken fragment of my heart and completely repaired it. He has given me new and fresh ideas. He has taken me into such a realm of the Holy Ghost that sometime my entire day is just filled with the presence and glory of the Lord. Running this race requires patience to reach the end. I've had my ups and down this past year, but here I stand, still leaning on and trusting the Lord. God has started to do some wonderful things in my life and I'm so glad that me giving up was just not an option. I took a much needed sabatical, but now I'm back and I'm just as hungrier now as I was when I started. And I know that it's because I've been in the prayer closet alot more. I'm looking forward to what the Lord has to share with me in the coming year. I'm so thankful that He has brought me this far and taken me through two loses this year. I just feel extremely blessed to be called a child of the King.
