MY CHILD I AM HERE
“Thy word is a lamp unto my feet, and a
light unto my path”
Psalm
119:15 (KJV)
How could this be happening?
In
a few weeks, I am supposed to be getting married, but here I sit, nervously
prancing about in the intensive care waiting area, wondering if my fiancé was going to pull through. Just a week after getting engaged, meeting
the family, and planning my wedding, my husband to be lay fighting for his
life.
Just three
years earlier, before we met, he lay in this same intensive care room with a
bout of double pneumonia and the family was told to prepare for the worst, and
that he would not make it through the night.
I didn’t know, if I was faced with seeing the man I love so close to
death, if I could endure such anguish. Now it was my reality.
Lord, please help me! This cannot be the way the story will
end.
Having arrived
in Missouri and not yet knowing anyone outside my fiancé and his children, I was
feeling rather desolate and distressed. I
kept looking at the engagement ring on my finger. It took everything in me not
to scream.
Then I noticed
the Gideon bible on the coffee table. Lord just feed me with Your word.
“Now faith is the substance of things hoped
for, the evidence of things not seen”
As I read
Hebrews 11 my fears began to calm. I whispered
to my stepdaughter, “Would you like to go
and pray with me?” I know that she
was worried too and wondered if her dad was going to make it.
We found a
place inside the bathroom adjacent to the waiting area.
“He belongs to You Lord. Restore his health and life back. I give this
all to You.”
As I sit here,
nearly 5 years later, I am reminded how merciful and gracious is our Savior. My
husband was moved from intensive care to a private room the next morning. We got
married a month later.
God will always
lead you back to His word. He will
direct you in those moments when you feel that all hope is gone. He knows the meaning behind every tear that
you shed. Open His word and you will
hear Him gently speaking to you, “My child, I am here!”
